anchored

let me crash in the sea, not the harbor.
let me feel the waves swarm and smother me.
feel totally alone, nearly capsizing, almost lose hope.
so i may feel pride if i shall happen to live.
dont allow me to die slowly, gaining rust like the others.
so many others have failed yet never truly finished.
the tides will be my company, the winds my music, and my anchor our false hope.